I can't believe it

Wow Lydia, I can't believe I am saying this but thank you! Now that Mr. Bingley has returned home because of you marraige, we will finally be together and we are happy as can be! Dreams really do come true!

GRRRR LYDIA!!!

LYDIA BENNET I CAN NOT BELIEVE YOU. YOU ARE ONLY 15 YEARS OLD AND YOU GO RUNNING OFF WITH MR. WICKHAM!!! ARE YOU INSANE!!! WHAT IS THE MATTER WITH YOU!!! NOW YOU DID NOT ONLY HURT YOUR OWN REPUTATION, YOU HURT THE WHOLE FAMILIES!!! Well I hope you are happy now because you must marry Mr. Wickham in order for our family to become excepted by society again! I bet that was not in you plans, WAS IT!!!???!!!

STILL HOPE!!!!

GUESS WHAT GUYS!?!?! I am going to London for three months to visit my aunt Mrs. Gardiner! I really hope I will get to see Mr. Bingley while I am there and hopefully sparks will fly! Although Miss. Bingley is trying to convince me otherwise, I believe we can still make a friendship out of this!

It's over.

Well, It looks like it is over between me and Mr. Bingley. Now that he is officially moving to London and not coming back, I might as well just stop giving my hopes up...

Lizzy and Mr. Darcy

I have found out that Mr. Bingley's real reason for leaving is because Mr. Darcy told him that he was "saving him from a loveless marriage." This means that I should have shown my love for him more! Maybe it was my fault. I want to marry him so badly! I love him. And now Lizzy won't marry Mr. Darcy because he ruined my marriage.   Lizzy, I know you love me and I love you too but don't let what happened to me stop your happiness. I know that you declined Mr. Darcy's proposal but I want you to say yes anyway. If you love him and he loves you, then marry him! I want what is best for you and I want you to have a good future. Even tho I thought the way he proposed to you was kind of rude (hahaha). But he means well!

:(

Maybe I should have showed my love for her more! Maybe then he would not be leaving. Because he defiantly is now! And i'm depressed. I do not want to leave my room, I don't want to talk to anyone and i don't want to see anyone. I am just so sad all the time. :(

I hate my life...

I love Mr. Bingley so much and as I lived with him I really grew close to him! But now he is moving! Far far away and now I can't marry him! He does not know if it is positive yet but I really want to marry him! I love him! I am just really happy Lizzy is here to help me through this right now.